Glory be!! I have finally found my nitch and have gotten the hang of all these pills and ailments. Since my last post I have epilepsy to now add to my list of concerns. >.< great just what I need.
But that's alright. I am beginning to fall in my new routine.. its not perfect by any means. But don't tell my husband that. He thinks I take them EVERDAY when im supposed to. I wont lie to you all I don't but I do feel guilty when I miss or am too lazy to get back out of bed to do what im supposed to.
I feel like I have to lie to him sometimes. It really does save an unnecessary fight.
YES. I know I'm supposed to take them
YES I know its my responsibility
YES It is my choice if I want to take them or not
Choice... what a funny word. I never got a choice for a lot of these things: medication, dr appts, health conditions.
When I do not take my medicine I feel like it's the only real choice I can make.
Choice = Power
I have felt no worse feeling in this lifetime then being powerless. helpless. and scared
Only referred to in my life as the dark days. It wasn't one time period. They still come and go but I will continue to grow and become strong.
My heart still ticks and I have something worth fighting for
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