SUCCESS

Everytime I go to the doctor I feel like I am going to confess my medical "sins"


as you can tell I was brought up Catholic


I got everything on my list of things to do accomplished and I am on a healthy road to recovery.

I am able to care for myself :D

it is such a yummy feeling.

If I were smart I'd be trying to feel like this errrday

I feel like a psychotherapist would be beneficial for me.

I don't really want to take a pill to make my problems go away. I really think that if I just Talk  about my feelings I can work through them.... rocket science I know

Ironic: I am studying clinical psychology so I can help others but im slowly learning I cannot take care of others until I can take care of myself.

Take care of your temple <3 we only have one.

Until next time c: 

anxiety to the max

I feel the waves of fear, stomach churning, and skepticism all over me today.

I'm going to the drs today

Not even a specialist. My primary

 

Goals:

• Referral to new neurologist- I haven't been in some time. I am nervous that my epilepsy has gotten worse. I'm sure I would've have been having more seizures but, I feel like you truly never know!
• Ask for the name of a recommended gynecologist. Makes me extremely anxious! I am 24 and have never been to one. I have some type of weird phobia about people looking at my most privatest places. It is an important bridge to cross because my mother has just gotten diagnosed with breast cancer.... I am scared.
• New prescription for my hormones

Finally and probably the one that will help me the most: referral to a psychiatrist. Anxiety has stopped me from being able to take care of myself

 

I have been known to make a thousand and one excuses as to why I do not take my medicines, keep my appointments, or simply routine visits.

 

ANXIETY overwhelming  ANXIETY

 

My family thinks I'm being absurd.

 

Ive been sick my entire life. Taking thyroid pills since before I can remember.

 

Hopefully today goes good. Taking my mom with me to guarantee I do not cancel at the last minute.

 

 

 

It has been known to happen too.

 

Any thoughts on phobias of doctors?



its a miracle in San Diego

I have been anti medicine for soooooo long. Against better judgment I may add.

Yesterday I was a good girl and took all the medicine I was supposed to.  seriously I don't do that.


I woke up this morning feeling wonderful! I was not tired or groggy. I didn't wake up hating life or having to peel myself out of bed. Damn. I'm a little upset that my medication works.

This means I need them. Legitimate need.


Its nice being active, thinking clearly and not to mention actually pooping again. That's always nice. Sorry for the TMI  but its a real thing.

not medicating.... self inflicted

What an uphill battle.... I am always one to put my health on the back burner.

I seem to always find an excuse to not be consistent with my pills. Only until I find myself in deep trouble.

Noticing a lot of my hair falling out of my head. Kind of alarming. I guess I will start taking my thyroid replacement again.

I can't figure myself out. I love to take care of others. But how can I do that if I cannot take care of myself.

Dealing with my doctors gives me such anxiety I can't handle it......

The same old same old ensues each time. "your not taking your pills?"


Me: "no, I haven't "

Dr: "you know its not good to skip your pills"

Yes I know I'm being self destructive... I need to figure out what's stopping me from taking care of myself